I remember that fire. At least I remember there was a fire. Mostly, the fire to me was hearsay. But others saw it. They still remember how the whole place just exhaled flame, out the windows and doors.
You can’t fight fire. That’s my take. At least guys like me can’t. I get nervous around birthday candles.
Others don’t want to think about it. Or they say “it’ll be fine” when they’re stuffing whole families into apartments the size of a pizza box.
They call it a roof over your head as if a roof is the ultimate in high living. Meanwhile the walls are basically kindling. And the place is badly wired and cheaply heated.
I knew the place before, and I saw it after, all charred ribs and silence. But the middle part, the bright awful moment when everything changed, I missed that, thankfully. Although sometimes when you don’t see something, you’re stuck with imagining it. That can be a whole lot worse.
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Look at what the first three lines do. I remember that fire. Then: At least I remember there was a fire. Then: Mostly, the fire to me was hearsay. A claim, a hedge, and a full retraction, in that order, inside three lines — and then the poem hands the memory over to somebody else entirely: But others saw it. The piece opens by dismantling its own authority, deliberately and in stages, and everything that follows is possible because of it. A poem that had simply asserted the memory would have had nowhere to go. This one has spent its credibility up front and has to earn the rest by other means.
The staging is lean and it moves through three positions: inside the speaker’s head (I get nervous around birthday candles), out into the social fact (apartments the size of a pizza box), and finally to the site itself (all charred ribs and silence). Each move is outward and each is a little colder.
I want to name a pattern that I do not think is accidental. The poem gives the building a body. It exhaled flame, and afterwards it is charred ribs. Breath, then skeleton. Those are the only two lyrical images the poem allows itself in thirty lines, and they belong to the same figure — a thing that breathed and then was reduced to bone. In a poem this determinedly plain, spending your entire image budget on one coherent metaphor is exactly the right discipline. Charred ribs and silence would be a fine line anywhere; here it is the payoff of a deliberate austerity.
Where the poem is loosest is the middle. The third and fourth stanzas carry the argument, and they carry it at a slower rate than the rest — the lines break where speech breaks and the rhythm does not tighten to match the sharpening of the content. Meanwhile the walls are basically kindling is the best line in that stretch and it is doing the work of the two around it. The close, by contrast, is exact. That can be a whole lot worse lands in the same shrugging register as the birthday-candle joke, which is why it lands at all.
I want to resist a temptation before I start, because it is the obvious move and it would be a mistake. This poem has a hole in the middle of it — the bright awful moment the speaker did not see — and a reader trained on our usual vocabulary will want to make that absence the subject: the unrepresentable event, the void at the centre, the thing that cannot be spoken. I am declining, because the poem is completely specific about why the fire happened, and treating it as metaphysics would quietly erase the part that is actually an accusation.
Here is the specification, in the poem’s own words: whole families stuffed into apartments the size of a pizza box; walls that are basically kindling; a place badly wired and cheaply heated. That is overcrowding, combustible construction, faulty electrics and inadequate heating — four separate economies, each one a decision made by somebody who was not living there. The poem’s claim is not that a tragedy occurred. It is that the fire was a feature of the building, assembled in advance out of savings, and that what happened was the design working as designed.
And it catches the phrase doing the political work, which is the thing this archive is for. They call it a roof over your head / as if a roof is the ultimate in high living. The idiom converts a legal minimum into a favour — you are given a roof, so what are you complaining about — and the poem simply sets the idiom next to the wiring and lets the two look at each other.
The haunting in this poem runs backwards. The speaker is not troubled by what he saw; he is troubled by the one thing he did not. He knew the building before, he walked through it after, and the middle is missing — so the middle is the part that will not settle. A memory is fixed and finite. An imagining reruns, and each time it can be adjusted slightly worse. That can be a whole lot worse is not a rhetorical flourish. It is a report on how it works.
But what I most want to credit is an ethical instinct that runs the length of the poem and never announces itself. This speaker will not claim what is not his. He says it was hearsay. He says others saw it. He says I missed that — and then, immediately, thankfully, which is one of the most loaded words in the piece: relief and shame arriving in the same four syllables. He lives near the disaster, not inside it, and at no point does the poem borrow the grief of the people who were in the building. That restraint is rarer than it sounds. A great many poems about catastrophe quietly promote their narrator to a survivor.
There is also a self-portrait folded into the joke. You can’t fight fire. That’s my take. At least guys like me can’t. I get nervous around birthday candles. It is funny, and it is doing something other than comedy: it establishes a man with no power over any of this — not over the fire, not over the wiring, not over who gets stuffed into what. By the time we reach the landlords' it’ll be fine, we already know the speaker is not among the people making decisions. The helplessness has been established as a condition, not complained about.
Why it is here, and what it reaches for
The charred ribs
I Remember That Fire enters the Archive as thirty lines of vernacular recollection about a building the speaker knew before and walked through after, and a fire he was not there for.
The myth it exposes is one carried inside an ordinary phrase: that a roof over your head is inherently an act of care. The idiom does a great deal of quiet work — it names the minimum and implies a kindness, so that anyone who objects to the conditions underneath it can be told they are ungrateful for the shelter itself. The poem lifts the phrase out and holds it against the material facts on the other side of the plaster: as if a roof is the ultimate in high living. / Meanwhile the walls are basically kindling. Once the two sentences are adjacent, the idiom cannot recover. That is the whole operation, and it takes two lines.
Beneath it runs the myth the speaker half-believes about himself: that distance is protection — that not having been present means not having been marked. The poem’s final movement dismantles this from the inside. He missed the bright awful moment, thankfully, and the consequence is that he is now furnishing it himself, indefinitely, with no version ever settling into fact. Absence turns out to be its own kind of exposure.
Its symbols come in two registers that the poem refuses to blend. The birthday candles and the pizza box are domestic, comic, and both are measurements — one of the speaker’s own nerve, the other of an apartment. The roof is the idiom under examination. The kindling walls are the accusation stated as construction material. And the charred ribs are what is left: the building’s skeleton, the poem’s only real metaphor, and the answer to the question the idiom was designed to prevent anyone asking. Its target is those ribs — the combustible reality standing behind the facade of provision.
It is retained at the first rung, Archive. The reading was quick, the readers agreed, and nothing in our procedure had to change to receive it. Rung is not rank, and this is a case worth saying so about plainly: the piece is well-made, its critique is precise, and it arrived legible. Nothing here resisted us — which is a fact about the fit between an artifact and a machine, not a measure of the artifact. What it leaves behind is a baseline for how vernacular narrative handles structural violence without sensationalising it, and one lesson in economy: thirty plain lines, two images, both of them the same body.
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